Winter has the advantage that you don't have to shave your armpits or legs for about 3 months. School has been going a lot smoother lately, and I've been going on a more regular dosage of medication. It feels like my imagination is warping a little though. I went to a BAAU meet, it was enjoyable, but I feel bad for insulting some people without knowing. That's the thing when I take this schizophrenia medication--I can't hear myself stop myself from doing bad things, and I blurt out or do things I wasn't aware I would do (sort of how drunk people act, I suppose)

And again, this semester at school, at about the same time as last semester, I snapped. I offended some people, and some people offended me, but not as bad as last time. I feel really bad, because once again, it was my own fault. So why? I have a feeling it's because I'm selfish, and I think to myself that I don't get much respect from anyone. I mean, I really don't like arguments as much as others do, so to avoid them, I just let them have it their way, and erase my own side of the problem as soon as possible so there is no conflict. I try to bite my tongue as much as possible, because I don't like entering conflicts. I wish I could speak out, but no one ever hears me out. See? I'm bitching about my issues, I'm selfish.

I think I need to leave BAAU for a couple of days and vent out all the anger and heavy thoughts that's happened in that place for the past couple months. I will visit it a few times to update certain threads, but I really don't want to talk to get into conflict for a few days.

I'm starting to make one sided arguments to myself lately. I need to control myself.

Even though I'm more relaxed, school wise, it feels hectic everywhere else. I think I might get off my schizophrenia meds for a couple days so I can think deep into what just happened today.


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Work I am working on, in order of priority (if I follow it, that is:
1. Some thing for this guy named Wang [in progress]
2. Baautle Royale Card Game card
3. BAAU DOWN comic
4. BAAUTLE ROYALE comic
<<<<<<<<<<<Don't be fooled; you want a commission, I will do it for payment!>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

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from request of 's journal entry about being tagged, I have decided that I too have been tagged, and I will do this "10 free sketches" thingie. I've never done one of these before, so I'm going to follow the same rules as what she did (here, I just copy + paste from her journal...):

01 - I will NOT draw your request until I see this in your journal.
02 - In your comment, include a link to a reference picture of the character you want me to draw. Or write me a description.
03 - Only one character per person- Remember, this is FREE. (Unless like, I feel like doing multiple characters for some reason.)
current:
1. - "USAGI YOJIMBOOOOO" [link] [DONE]
2. "I be doing this as well...so I tag you as first! xD Um... idk what I want, how about any kind of cute chibi Oni. If you rather I actually provide you with something, lemme know, but you can skip ahead to other people. :3" [link] [DONE]
3. "A SKETCH OF MIKE LOOKING AS IDIOTIC AS POSSIBLE." [link] [DONE]
4.- can i get a chibi of kamen rider ryuki plz? [DONE]
5. A picture of JADE ADMITTING DEFEAT! [DONE]
6. Urutan Yensa
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STILL UP IF YOU WANT A FREE DRAWING!!

my requests from other people:
:iconObakeh: [link]